July 23, 2003 - Happy Anniversary, Nathan!
May the rest of our lives together be as filled with love and joy as this year was!
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In his eyes I see my dreams
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The summer of 2002 was a very transitional period for me. My friends were all graduating college (and leaving me behind) and I was recently single. I barely had my wits about me and was desperate for a good time...for freedom and change and any form of temporary happiness I could find. So at Anthrocon in July, I arrived with conquest and debauchery on my mind. I had new friends with me, I was enjoying the company of old friends, and I was enjoying my first convention as a single women. And then in one moment all of my plans and ambitions were forgotten. My eyes caught his from across a crowded room and there was instant chemistry. I had never seen such a beautiful, friendly face that fit my ideals of masculine appeal so perfectly. And then he spoke to me... with one word, and one touch, I was his forever. What could have been one night of passion, enjoyed and quickly forgotten, turned into a close friendship and a deep love based on shared interests, obsessions, sensibilities, and dreams. Though we still live six hours apart, and only see each other for a few days every month (if we're lucky!), we talk to each other every night. Chat clients, web cams, Livejournal, and the occasional phone call keep us going, and our passion and dedication have never wavered. I look forward to the day when we can put all of this creative connecting behind us, and finally share our lives physically as well as emotionally. If all goes well, in less than a year I will kiss him goodnight every evening and hug him awake every morning. Forever. He is my soul mate, my eternal love. I will hold him in my arms until the end of time.
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I remember the first time he kissed me...in fact the whole first day together is forever etched in my mind. What set Nathan apart from every other boy I'd met that weekend (or ever!) is the way he looked at me. His eyes, soft and warm, just locked onto mine for long, silent moments while he just...looked and looked at me, as if he couldn't get enough. His eyes captured and captivated me. That look made me fall in love. I remember that first visit we had in August...how we already had love for each other, but how we really didn't know each other very well. Those first few days we spend cuddling and laughing, watching movies and talking. It's the talking that meant the most to me...laying in bed with him until the early morning hours, talking about anything and everything. We laughed, I'm sure I cried...and I realized how much I loved who Nathan was as a person, as well as a lover. What a wonderful surprise, to discover the romance of a lifetime was also a wonderful friendship. That night I discovered a sincere, honest, kind, passionate, funny friend. My best friend. My true love.
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| I've found my soul mate in him, and I hope he will agree to share his life with me for all time. He's romantic, sensitive, trusting, strong, passionate, loving, childlike... He amuses me, he excites me, he charms me, and he fulfils me. With him, I am complete. Of all the people I've met in this life, of all the people I've loved, no one has meant as much to me as he does. His sincerity, his honest and deep love, and his sparkling wit are irresistible. Even for all the suffering and heartbreak I've endured in my life, I simply believe that I am the luckiest woman in the world. He has brought so much happiness into my life. I can laugh again. I have dreams again. He's given me more than he knows. He is my hope, my joy, my whole world. And my love is his, only his, for all time. Nathan, I love you.
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Baby you're all that I want!
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